and now I find myself not knowing what to do. . . I think one thing, I feel something else; in addition to which, I don't feel certain things but I do think others that I hadn't expected to be thinking. . . and then, other times I think/feel completely the opposite to a previous time: all in all I'm at a loss for what to do next; if you trusted someone once and you were (really really really badly) let down, how do you know it won't happen again
on the other hand (or in the other hemisphere perhaps) it's nice having a friend. . . blast, now I'm blabbering on to no avail whatsoever
and on the other other hand (a completely different hemispere) - I'm still not mended properly, and don't want to get hurt again; and even if I was mended, why would I want to risk getting hurt (or causing hurt, even)? if it's better to have loved and lost than never loved at all, why ON EARTH would you chose to go back and subject yourself to all that all over again?
(he's not boring,
and looks are only in the eye of the beholder, eh)