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remember way back when, when I was getting bored with twiddling my thumbs on a Saturday night. . . no? oh well, I don't blame you! well, seeing as I needed to get out and had noone to go with, I did something constructive about it. . . the results of which leave me in two (or more, even) minds as to what to do next. . .are you familiar with that dilemma? when the left-hemisphere is telling you one thing and the right hemisphere something else (normally a completely different thing, and totally unconnected with the matter in hand)(or not in hand, as the case may be)(anyone who saw the season finale of House last night will know exactly to what I'm referring)(no, not being back in the psych clink, well not exactly anyhow, but the lack of corpus callosum issue)(I think mine is still intact, but sometimes it doesn't seem like it)

and now I find myself not knowing what to do. . . I think one thing, I feel something else; in addition to which, I don't feel certain things but I do think others that I hadn't expected to be thinking. . . and then, other times I think/feel completely the opposite to a previous time: all in all I'm at a loss for what to do next; if you trusted someone once and you were (really really really badly) let down, how do you know it won't happen again

so, if in doubt do nothing, right? but is it worth taking a risk? or is it a case of if it's not broken, don't fix it? presumably, if I do nothing but "go with the flow", I might later wish that I hadn't lacked the assertiveness and the healthy degree of control over my own life that I have sought (specifically to avoid becoming entangled in other people's webs) and achieved, in certain degrees, of late. . .oh, how am I supposed to know what to think?

on the other hand (or in the other hemisphere perhaps) it's nice having a friend. . . blast, now I'm blabbering on to no avail whatsoever

and on the other other hand (a completely different hemispere) - I'm still not mended properly, and don't want to get hurt again; and even if I was mended, why would I want to risk getting hurt (or causing hurt, even)? if it's better to have loved and lost than never loved at all, why ON EARTH would you chose to go back and subject yourself to all that all over again?

(he's not boring,
and looks are only in the eye of the beholder, eh)

13 comments:

Dave said...

I don't know. So I'm not going to be silly enough to try to give you advice.

Roberta Fleck said...

I *am* silly enough to offer advice - Mad Men: the complete season 1 & 2. 30m quid in HMVs DVD sale.

Who need any other kind of man?

;)

xxx
'berta

mig said...

Just hang on to both hemispheres dear one. You need them.

I've been reading a lot of novels recently and they all tell me if you trusted someone once and they let you down, they will do it again. Of course that's fiction, but I'm a cynical old baggage so I naturally tend towards thinking it's also true.

On the other hand, there's forewarned and forearmed?

(I still don't know of an icon thingy for a shrug. Especially not for a cautious shrug).


((((((((((((((( I ))))))))))))))))

xxxxxx

mig said...

Oh oops - I just looked at the link. All of the links in fact (there's a knee in the brain????) (House in the psych clink???)
Oh well have another hug anyway. ((((((((((( I ))))))))))

I, Like The View said...

lovely hug mig - thanks! it's not the same person to whom I'm referring, just the same issues of trusting a person and being let down, then meeting a different person and not wanting to be "let down" again

'berta I thought you might be able to offer advice on all things concerning men

it's the end of the month tho, and I'm skint - so I can't invest in anything from anywhere, but thanks for stopping by with your two pennies worth

Dave it's not silly advice I'm after - more your thoughts (from either hemisphere)

better stay and play safe and single for evermore, or take a risk and

and

and

no, better to be safe, methinks

Spadoman said...

Here's my two cents worth. I have had this problem before, last night I think, and here is what I say to mysself:

Joe, (or Man, as you call me, ((I like that by the way)),),
"When did you decide that you had to make a decision?"

Peace anyway, to you and all you hold dear.

I, Like The View said...

man (Joe! ((I like Joe by the way))) it's not that I've decided I need/have to make this decision, it's that it's been lurking in the ether for a couple of months now. . .

. . .I don't want to have to answer any questions/make any decicions that might come up, I don't know even if they might come up - so the whole thing is a bit vague. . . it's just that I kinda know the issue is lurking

and something makes me think that if I don't know what my answer/decision would be, I might lose something I currently "have" that I enjoy - and that's a price I'm willing to pay if I know the answer

but I don't

Rimshot said...

I say, dash it all, throw caution to the wind and let the chips fall where they may and jump in with both feet.

KAZ said...

Proceed with caution - but DO proceed.

Dave said...

Still not foolish enough to try to offer adice without knowing all the facts.

Happy Tuesday, little miss wonderful.

I, Like The View said...

all the facts. . . since when have I ever disclosed all the facts!

on the other other other other hand, how will I make progress if I don't

I'm liking the new "mornings" by the way! Happy Tuesday to you Dave

DO KAZ. . . interesting - how much caution tho!

shot really? what about the issue of the almost potential hurt from all those chips landing on me

Mel said...

Oh, I'm almost glad to be sneaking in here to drop my 'learned lesson'.....the greatest of these is love, you know. And I just know I can't guard my heart--try as I might, lie to myself as I will.....

*sitting on hands now!* :-/

I, Like The View said...

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