how quickly time passes. . . we go from this
. . .to this. . .
in a seeming instant
with almost with no warning - I mean, I was paying attention (most of the time) and now, now
now I have no clue
the only thing I can do is continue as I was (it can't have been all bad) (can it?) and keep trying to do my best and not loose it when almost everything goes horribly wrong